And so life moves on...

It's been a roller coaster of activities and emotions here. With weekly trips to Lancaster to help care for an elderly aunt, life takes on a new perspective - the reality of dying. I could write an entire blog post on the lessons I've learned in the last few weeks. And then there is the driving - how do you make 6 hrs in the car profitable over and over again? Note to self - It is not the stops at the outlet mall! Some of the time is redeemed just in giving comfort to my aunt. She said through tears - this is such a waste of time for you, to which I replied - does it bring you comfort? why of course she responded, then, I said, my time has been well spent.

My father and my aunt as children

Then there is the challenge of losing weight and how to make lifestyle changes when your world is not in control. The sad thing is I have done this SO MANY times and yet it is all new every time. What I want to do and what I do are always two different things. And time is so elusive. It really is best to take one day at a time - but so hard to do it.
And then we have the move. After weeks of looking at places from the road we decided it was time to go out with a realtor and look at the two we had narrowed the field down to up close. Then the reality of packing up 14 years of life (the longest we've lived anywhere) and making a new home hit me and I grieved for several days like I did not expect to have happen - the anger, the fear, grieving the death of a dream takes it toll just like the death of a loved one. You may think I am being melodramatic and I was definitely being selfish but I had a different plan in mind than the one we are following. A different plan for life, a different plan for work, a different plan for just about everything and now it is all going to be packed up in boxes and starting over in a strange place where the plan is not yet defined or even recognizable. I am so thankful to have a constant reliable God who sees me through the challenges of life.
John and I had the chance to spend a few days away this weekend. We needed to escape and he had a groupon from Christmas with an overnight at a very nice place in DE. I had also found leftover gift cards that were close to expiring (almost $200) - he drives me nuts leaving things lay around and then of course the loose change that we banked earlier in the month so we had a very luxurious but thrifty overnight. We stopped in the Inner Harbor in Baltimore - it was a lovely day and had a delicious crab lunch at Phillips Seafood - and it was Restaurant week in Bmore so we got a great deal at a very popular restaurant. It was good to talk out things and have a good cry (me) and then talk out things some more - all away from home and work. He convinced me that in spite of the changes we are facing - and the work it will entail - I still have time for me. So he put a new dream in me and I think I can move on in a more positive spirit than I had a few days ago.
So not the cheeriest blog post ever but just laying out what is on my heart and mind. I've been cleaning out and organizing my craft work room in anticipation of packing it up and I came across a bag of treasures from the beach a few years ago. Shells and seaweed and driftwood - all pieces I had a project in mind for so I traveled memory lane and enjoyed touching and feeling a peace of the sea. And all that cleaning and organizing means I can see my floor AND I can find the things I want to work on! So perhaps I'll have something interesting to share next time

A New Normal

I had a feeling this year was gonna be good. It just seemed like there was change in the air. Perhaps because I've lived in a perpetual state of change for the past two years getting ready to marry off my younguns' but I really didn't know what could possibly top those events. For those of you waiting for some big announcement - it ain't happening. This year may just be another year of family and fun but it feels different. One of my goals for the year was to get my house in order - and by house I mean physical dwelling where we live and love but also house as in ME - make a plan, plan a life, live intentionally, decide what you want to do with your next half century and get moving! Many of you know I turn 50 this year - no biggie, but yet a fun milestone to celebrate. Many of you know I am in a search for my birth parents - no news yet but steady information flowing. Many of you know that I gave myself a 100 day challenge - more on that later. But it's already shaping up to be a not quite what I expected new year.
First of all, my schedule will change a bit - for a little while at least. My brother has asked me to help care for my elderly aunt. She is currently in skilled nursing care but as she has no family but the few of us, it is time to rally support. So I will be going back and forth to Lancaster each week to spend a few days sitting with her, advocating for her and just being with her. My brother has all the hard stuff under control so I get to do the easy stuff - be me. We'll see how the next two weeks go and then make a plan from there. But being gone from home will certainly motivate me to use the time I am home wisely because  the next change that looks like it will take place this year is a move. How on earth does one box up 13 years of living in one place and move it all to another place and still call it home? I do ache with my kids who feel like the rug is pulled from under them (under they aren't even at home anymore.). They haven't physically said it because they want to be supportive but I know that they feel that way because I do! But business has been challenging over the last few years and we've lost our lease and have two years to physically move the business elsewhere. We've come to the conclusion that the best thing to do is to combine everything under one roof - well not literally but on one property so we are looking for a farm where we have everything we planned for at our farm in Appomattox, everything our family could want for a HOME SWEET HOME and everything a business would need for office space, crane storage, machine shed, etc.
It has been fun to explore some of these farms. Others make me want to cry and say no way! I selfishly want to keep my house - all the improvements - the new custom kitchen, the gorgeous bathrooms, the rooms painted how I want them - I have seen some UGLY wallpaper and carpet and paint! but then I see the layout of a particular place and I think "oh a holly tree, a perfect spot for a lavender garden, a field for veggies - hey I could raise a goat!" and start to get all excited about the possibilities. We'll have to wait and see what the Lord has planned! But in the meantime should I order seeds and prepare my garden?
THE 100 Day Challenge - losing 25 lbs before I turn 50!
So far so good - week 1 is 5 lbs gone! I love the success of the first week and know that it won't stay this way but I am taking it one day at a time. Learning to track, learning to plan, relearning portion size, looking for healthy alternatives (right now I am in love with greek yogurt) and trying to eat a piece of fruit before anything else sweet. It helps to have purged the house of Christmas cookies - still have some bags of chips that should probably get tossed. Still looking for partners and good ideas and any encouragement anyone wants to add. Thanks for the support.

 

163 days til summer

or so I am told

Collections

 Christmas decorating always brings out the collections and with it much nostalgia. I didn't do a lot of decorating this year but I did bring out "The Snow Village" and a few nativities. I have been collecting pieces to The Snow Village since our first wedding anniversary. One advantage to getting married on the 30th of December is the fact that most of these pieces were bought on sale after Christmas as anniversary gifts. The first pieces we purchased were the ice skaters, the basketball players and the big white farm house. The big white farmhouse reminds us of our wish to live out in the country and of course in the 80's basketball was John's life - aside from me, which goes without saying. The ice skating piece was also wedding related and reminded us of going "skating" in DC with lots of friends and family a few nights before our wedding. We also loved all the red heads in this collections - hmm wonder why? and since there are tons of kids they all got names from John's siblings. Later years saw the addition of the barn, the anniversary piece, the red truck and several other pieces. The latest addition was the soldier coming home in time for Christmas and was in Michael's honor when he made it home on Christmas Eve.

 The ice skaters usually include Sarajane and Sabrina 

and Nathaniel who has fallen down

 

 John and Ensign playing basketball

Andrew and Luke sledding on saucers,

just like we used to fly down hills.

 

 Happy Anniversary - December 20, 1983

someday a barn...

Welcome Home Mikey - 2008

Another collection I have been working on over the years is the Nativities - of course to emphasize the true meaning of Christmas. At first my goal was to find unusual ones and I have found many of those - like the red clay one from Sedona, and the wrought iron one from Lancaster, the carved wood from the Philippines and of course the homemade ones we made with the kids. This year I only set out two of my sets - my most recent acquisitions which don't really fit the "unusual" definition but they are easily two of my favorites, mostly due to size and probably due to the fact that the Willow Tree set was a gift from my kids over the course of a few years.

 

Santos set

 

 the home made set made from wooden blocks and felt. Our set has three shepherds, multiple sheep, three wise men etc. One year we made these with the kids from church - over 20 sets - that's a lot of felt to cut. We've also made them with my nieces and nephews and of course I am looking forward to making a set with my grandchildren some day.

I also have a snowman collection. These are all about 10 - 12 inches high and collection one a year for about 8 years.When the artist quit making them, I quit collecting them. Perhaps they'll be out on my shelves next year. Or maybe it will be a Chrismons year, or a vintage Christmas books year or ..... we'll just have to wait and see.

And don't even start me on ornaments. At one of my bridal showers everyone was asked to bring a Christmas ornament. Many of those are hand crafted and somewhere is the list of who gave what. But this year we had a red, white and blue tree to honor our daughter-in-law Laura who is serving on deployment somewhere out there. Each year that Mike was gone we also did the red white and blue theme so it seemed fitting to use them once again. Anything red, white or blue makes the tree along with a plethora of snowflakes and some gold ornaments from places we've visited in the grand ole USA. This year a family of cardinals graced the top of our tree thanks to Kayla. Time to visit some after Christmas sales and see what's left

Off to pack up my collections - Happy New Years!

As promised

 
Here are a few pictures of some of the things I made this Christmas.
Ornaments:
I made LOTS of these. First off for the Art group I am a member of - our monthly swap was ornaments. I got some interesting ones in return. I also made one for each of my babies that I play with in childcare. For most of them it was there first Christmas and for others it is the first Christmas they participated in as they were newborns last Christmas. (not allowed to publish those pics, unfortunately cuz they are cute as the dickens!)

Then to keep tradition going I made a set of ornaments for Mike and Laura's first Christmas from wedding pictures.

Each of my kiddos (and spouse where appropriate) got this cookbook Holiday Baking. It is filled with the cookie, and other yummy recipes that we "have to have" each Christmas. Of course it also has lots of pictures from Christmas baking adventures in the past and pictures of their first Christmases.

Next for my two married kids I made perpetual calendars - you know the kind you use year after year to keep tracks of special dates like family birthdays and anniversaries etc.

 

I made note cards from some of my favorite photos. Shutterfly had a great deal going so I produced mass quantity to use as gifts and also to sell.

And lastly I made a Wall Word for my son-in-law who loves to read. Upon opening, the boys did some very interesting "rewording" who knows what will actually go up on the wall. No picture currently but I decoupaged on paper mache letters from Hobby Lobby the word READ, using black paint, black and white scrapbooking papers and a little distressing to keep it real.

Also sold  a dozen luminaries and multiple sets of oak candle holders and 2 dozen wreaths (total). Two churches and a wedding will be graced with our oak trees and globe amaranth wreaths this season.  Santa's Workshop and the elf helpers have all been very busy

 this is what they look like for weddings.

and below with beautiful fresh greens 

and holly in the church windows

And that my friends is my home-crafted Christmas 2011.

Merry Christmas my friends

It is the day of Christmas Eve and aside from wrapping and cooking I have it in the bag. I can't wait to show you the gifts I made this year. I am super happy with them. Of course, if I were to show you now some surprises would be spoiled so you will have to wait, along with me, to see what I cooked up this year. Speaking of cooking, and baking, yesterday was cinnamon roll baking day. None of these shortcuts for us - it is the real McCoy - nothing beats homemade yeast dough and everytime I see those recipes for cheaters or those things in a can I feel a little self-righteous - forgive me please! Today I better finalize the menu for Christmas Dinner. I am super excited that tonight we are doing Christmas Eve at Lynnette and Drew's house. We are "killing two birds with one stone" and having Christmas Brunch for Christmas Eve so that we can actually go to church to celebrate the true meaning of Christmas Day and not miss out on any traditions. Of course we will grab some cinnamon rolls on our way to church and then when we get home tear into the gifts. Looking forward to it. We'll eat our meal at dinnertime. Everytime I plan a Christmas dinner I see so many carbs - everything we love is carb heavy - yet when I ask for favorites and must haves they all come up again. Sweet Potato Casserole, mashed potatoes and gravy, Spoon Bread, Homemade rolls, this year I am skipping the grean bean casserole and trying something new - Sweet and Sour green beans and instead of honey and brown sugar on the carrots I am going to oven roast them to bring out the sweetness. We'll see how many complaints I get. Part of me says Oh just go with it and start a diet in the New Year. Which I will do but my jeans are already feeling tight and I still have Boxing Day (Haney Christmas) and New's Year's Eve and Day to get through. UGH  - already feeling the pain.
Well I will attach a copy of our Christmas Note and bid you adieu - time to get my elf hat back on! I made my cards this year but of course they are gone and not a picture taken so here's the note and Merry Christmas

this year's family picture

Merry Christmas from the Underwoods

How blessed we are to have been given another year to love and to serve Jesus as we celebrate His birth this season. Here is a quick snapshot of our busy year.

John – survived another hard year at Loudoun Tunneling Co., Inc. We are grateful that the business is still running and we have some work to do. However it has been a long hard road in this economy and we pray things pick up soon. He recently moved his office into our home and seems to now work night and day. We enjoyed seeing many of his cousins and extended family at a reunion this summer in Lake of the Ozarks, MO.

Mary – has put on a lot of travel miles this year with over 20 states and counting. Her new project has been speaking to women’s retreats and other gatherings. The topic is “Journey of a Lifetime – Reflections on Pilgrim’s Progress” and has been well received at each event.  She also switched jobs and now works in childcare at our church. Playing with babies on W, TH, F is a highlight of the week and almost removes the itch for being a grandma.

Lynnette – continues to teach a combined 2^nd/3^rd grade at Lorien Wood. She is in her fifth year of teaching. Her husband, Andrew recently began a new job for the Dept. of Justice and now commutes to DC every day.  We love having them about 30 mins from us.

Michael- was married to Laura Parks this past October. They moved to San Diego where she is stationed with the US Navy. We miss her this Christmas as she tours around the world and pray for her safety onboard ship and in ports they will be visiting. It’s a rough way to start a marriage of 6 weeks, but we hope this will fulfill the necessity of a deployment for a long time.

Kayla – is a senior at Covenant College and we don’t know where the time went. She will graduate in May as a Sociology Major with a concentration in Counseling along with two minors: Community Development and  Missions. She has enjoyed her years of volleyball and decided to finish up by playing a season of basketball. 

Closing Up the Farm for Winter

Since this "farm" is a work in progress, and we use the term farm quite liberally, we usually do not make many trips down during the winter. First of all - nothing is growing and secondly, and most important in my book is there is no heat. So we drain our pipes in our little trailer and say goodbye until spring. It was a very cold weekend we chose to go down to take care of this project. As long as we were working we were fine but when we went to sit down in the evening with a little shared heater it was cold! We did have a cozy almost hot bedroom for sleeping - actually turned the heater off during the night it was so warm but everywhere else in our trailer you could see your breath.
We still had potatoes to dig - lots of large sweet potatoes and we found some surprise onions that we had missed last time. And since our apple trees did not do so well this year we stopped at an orchard and got a few apples for making applesauce. We also paused to enjoy an awesome sunset. Just incredible to watch it unfold. We hightailed it up to the ridge behind our place to watch the final moments.
I also did a little shopping in Appomattox - I happened to hit their Christmas Sale in Old Town and picked up a few fun things including a Christmas ornament to join our collection of the places we've been.
In all honesty it was a bittersweet trip. In my head I kept thinking "Please don't let this be the last time." so I looked at it through a different lens as I made the rounds of each special place. We don't want to have to sell it, we don't want to let it go ever but with the economy wreaking havoc on business it may be our only option. I hate even writing that! but as we look at properties to move our business (Loudoun County is a butthead - excuse my language) one solution we're batting around is to sell our house and our farm and buy land that will house us and the business and have some room to still play farmer. Not at all what I want to do, but then again, I certainly can't live in an icy cold trailer all winter now can I? And we have seen some nice places so it might not be all bad but I love our farm and the dreams we dream there and the way it brings our family together for fun, not to mention all the great marriage building time and the photography. Oy vay! enough already!
So enjoy the pics and keep your fingers crossed that there will be years of more!
And so that we don't end on a sad note here's a funny story. We had driven about 30 minutes towards home when I suddenly remembered I had left some things on the kitchen table - a banana and a chocolate bar. I asked John if he had by any chance picked up the banana from the kitchen table and he just looked at me and said - "Really?" ha - so either the mice have had a real feast OR it froze and will be waiting for us or it rotted and our little trailer will smell like a banana next year. Ew! makes me laugh every time I think about it.


I have lots of pics for this blog but they are not loading so I'll post and have to add pics later.